Meteora
Album - 24 marzo 2003 - Debaser id 55948

Instrumental

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I need you to go

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don't stay

Sometimes I feel like I've trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I need to be alone

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don't stay

I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away
I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away
With no apologies

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and don't stay
Don't stay
Don't stay

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find that
I'm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
but all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real.
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I cant believe I didn't fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind.
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
Cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
(Erase all the pain 'til it's gone)
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I want to heal, I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong
I want to heal, I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
When I pretend I can forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just because I know I can
But I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay
I'm just trying to bend the truth
I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be
So I'm lying my way from you

No, no turning back now
I want to be pushed aside, so let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone
No, no turning back now
Anywhere on my own because I can see
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me
And I'm trying to bend the truth
But the more I push, the more I'm pulling away
Because I'm lying my way from you

No, no turning back now
I want to be pushed aside, so let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone
No, no turning back now
Anywhere on my own because I can see
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you is me

This isn't what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said would have you running from me
Like this
This isn't what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said would have you running from me
Like this
This isn't what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said would have you running from me
Like this
This isn't what I wanted to be
I never thought that what I said would have you running from me
Like this

You

No, no turning back now
I want to be pushed aside, so let me go
No, no turning back now
Let me take back my life, I'd rather be all alone
No, no turning back now
Anywhere on my own because I can see
No, no turning back now
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you is me

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I've held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind, afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you've said about me when I'm not around
You think having the upper hand means you've got to keep putting me down
But I've had too many stand offs with you, it's about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top, the next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top, the next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop, you think you've won and then it's all gone

So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I'm counting down the time
Because I've had so many stand offs with you, it's about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top, the next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top, the next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop, you think you've won and then it's all gone
And then it's all gone and then it's all gone and then it's all gone
Now it's all gone

I know I'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall

One minute you're on top, the next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top, the next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop, you think you've won and then it's all gone
And then it's all gone and then it's all gone and then it's all gone
Now it's all gone

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb.
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone.

Something has been taken from deep inside of me,
A secret I've kept locked away, no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away,
Like moving pictures in my head, for years and years they've played.

''If I could change, I would take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave, I would
If I could change, I would take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would,
I would take all my shame to the grave.''

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb.
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone.

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past,
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have.
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back,
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past.

''If I could change, I would take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave, I would
If I could change, I would take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would,
I would take all my shame to the grave.''

Just washing it aside,
All of the helplessness inside,
Pretending I don't feel misplaced,
Is so much simpler than change.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb.
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone.

It's easier to run!
''If I could change, I would take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made''
It's easier to go!
''If I could change, I would take back the pain, I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would,
I would take all my shame to the grave.''

I am / a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints, but I can't help the fact that everyone can see these scars
I am / what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do I can't convince you to just believe this is real
So I let go watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here because you're all that I got

I can't feel / the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored
Time won't heal / this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

I am / a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Because you don't understand, I do what I can, but sometimes I don't make sense
I am / what you never want to say, but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I let go, watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here because you're all that I got

I can't feel / the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored
Time won't heal / this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

No, hear me out now
You're going to listen to me like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're going listen to me like it or not
Right now

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

I can't feel / the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored
Time won't heal / this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

I can't feel…
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored
Time won't heal…
Don't turn your back on me, I won't be ignored

Memories consume like opening the wounds
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
Because inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way, I know, it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit, I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more than any time before
I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
Because inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way I’ll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit, I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
Because I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way I’ll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I don't know who to trust, no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies

Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back upon my feet
All I ever think about is this, all the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Because I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me

Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back upon my feet
All I ever think about is this, all the tiring time between and how
Trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Because I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

I won't waste myself on you
I won't waste myself on you

I'll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Because I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Everything from the inside
And just throw it all away
Because I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Coming at you

Peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is how could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like, rewind that
We're just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those
Who want to talk this and that so I suppose
That it gets to a point feelings got to get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt, it goes

I try to give you warning, but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly, but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Handful of anger held in my chest
And everything left's a waste of time
I hate my rhymes but hate everyone else's more
I'm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that its better I can't keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood, sweat, and tears
The uphill struggle over years, the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you

I try to give you warning but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Handful of anger held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Handful of anger held in my chest
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Heart full of pain, heart full of pain

I try to give you warning but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening
Call to you so clearly but you don't want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear, but nobody's listening

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Nobody's listening
Handful of anger held in my chest
Nobody's listening
Uphill struggle, blood, sweat and tears
Nobody's listening
Nothing to gain, everything to fear
Nobody's listening

Coming at you from every side

[Instrumental]

I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface,
Don't know what you're expecting of me,
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
[Caught in the undertow, Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you,
[Caught in the undertow, Just caught in the undertow]

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
I've become so tired
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this
All I want to do,
Is be more like me
And be less like you,

Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly
afraid to lose control,
'Cause everything that you thought I would be,
Has fallen apart
right in front of you,
[Caught in the undertow, Just caught in the undertow]
Every step that I take is another mistake to you,
[Caught in the undertow, Just caught in the undertow]
And every second I waste is more than I can take,

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
I've become so tired
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this
All I want to do,
Is be more like me
And be less like you,

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you,

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
I've become so tired
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this
All I want to do,
Is be more like me
And be less like you,

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be