Recovering the Satellites
Album - 14 ottobre 1996 - Debaser id 10116

All of the sudden she dissapears
Just yesterday she was here
Somebody tell me if I am sleeping
Someone should be with me here
'Cause I dont wanna be alone

I wanna be the knife that cuts into my hand
And I wanna be scattered from here in this catapult
What a big baby
Won't somebody save me please
You won't find nobody home

All of these quiet battered voices
Wait for the hunger to come
We got little revolvers and stupid choices
And no one to say when we're done
Well I don't wanna bring you down

I wanna be the light that burns out your eyes
'Cause I know there's little things about me
That would sing in the silence of
So much rejection in every connection I make
I can't find nobody home

I wanna be the light that burns out your eyes
'Cause I know there's little things about me
That would sing in the silence of
So much rejection in every connection I make
I wanna be the last thing that you hear when you're falling asleep

I wanna be the knife that cuts into my hand
And I wanna be scattered from here in this catapult
What a big baby
Won't somebody save me please
I can't find nobody home

Well I guess you left me with some feathers in my hand
Did it make it any easier to leave me where I stand?
I guess there might not be too many who would stand beside you now
Where'd you come from? Where am I going?
Why'd you leave me 'till I'm only good for...

Waiting for you
All my sins...
I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you
All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming

Every night these silhouettes appear above my head
Little angels of the silences that climb into my bed and whisper
Every time I fall asleep Every time I dream
Did you come? Would you lie?
Why'd you leave us 'till we're only good for...

Waiting for you
All my sins...
I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you
All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming

I dream of Michelangelo when I'm lying in my bed
Little angels hang above my head and read me like an open book
Suck my blood break my nerve offer me their arms
Well, I will not be an enemy of anything
I'll only stand here

Waiting for you
All my sins...
I said that I would pay for them if I could come back to you
All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming

I'm gone, I'm gone, I'll leave the day I'm gone
I'm gone, I'm gone, take me away
I'm gone, I'm gone, I'll leave the day
I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone
I'm gone

Waiting for the moon to come and light me up inside
And I am waiting for the telephone to tell me I'm alive
Well, I heard you let somebody get there fingers into you
It's getting cold in California
I guess I'll be leaving soon

Daylight fading
Come and waste another year
All the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
When we see the early signs that daylight's fading
We leave just before it's gone

She said "everybody loves you"
she says, "everybody cares"
But all the things I see inside myself,
they vanish in the air
If you tell me that you'll wait for me
I'll say I won't be here
I want to say goodbye to you
Goodbye to all my friends
Goodbye to everyone I know

Daylight fading
Come and waste another year
All the anger and the eloquence are bleeding into fear
Moonlight creeping around the corners of our lawn
When we see the early signs that daylight's fading
We leave just before it's gone

she comes to me at night when i'm sleeping
she comes to me when i'm alone
she comes to me she holds my head when i'm crying
she comes to me she shuts my eyes
she brings me home

but i'm not sleeping anymore

she tells me when you look at me she tells me when you're lying
she tells me when you talk about me she lays me on the floor
she tells me when you're whispering she lies beside me naked
she tells me when you laugh at me and she locks all the doors

but i'm not sleeping anymore

1-2-3-4-5-6-7 am
all alone again
but i've been through all this shit before
spend my nights in self-defense
cry about my innocence
but i ain't all that innocent anymore

i see her on the TV i see her in the movies
i see her in these animals that dance beside my bed
i'll follow you down baby down into this valley
i'll follow you down baby but i won't come up again

but i'm not sleeping anymore

No no no no no no no no no no no,
I'm not sleeping anymore
I'm not sleeping anymore, hey hey hey
I said rain rain go away, come again someother day
Cause I got all this shit to say, but I gone back to find my way
My sisters mothers favorite song lost among the chosen one
But I got news for everyone cause Im going out the door.

children in bloom cooking in the sun
waiting for a room of our own
leave my sister alone
she don't deserve this
she is a flower and i am a flower and
we are all alone

i gotta get out on my own
i gotta get up from this waiting at home
i gotta get out of this sunlight it's melting my bones
i gotta get up from this slumber and get myself home

all these wasted dreams
waiting for the sum to open up my heart to anyone
bring me some rain
because i'm dying and i can't get this damn thing closed again

i gotta get out on my own
i gotta get up from this waiting at home
i gotta get out of this sunlight it's melting my bones
i gotta get up from this slumber and get myself home

where's the funhouse this year?
the fairground's deserted and the skies don't seem as near
Nicole's my oldest friend
but the altar is empty and she'll never be a little girl again

i gotta get out on my own
i gotta get up from this waiting at home
i gotta get out of this sunlight it's melting my bones
i gotta get up from this slumber and get myself home
i can't find my way home

get away from me
just get away from me
this isn't gonna be easy
but i don't need you
believe me
yeah, you got a piece of me
but it's just a little piece of me
an' i dont need anyone
and these days i feel like i'm fading away
like sometimes when i hear myself on the radio

have you seen me lately?
have you seen me lately

i was out on the radio starting to change
somewhere out in America
it's starting to rain
could you tell me one thing you remember about me
and have you seen me lately?

i remember me
and all the little things
that make up a memory
like she said she loved to watch me sleep
like she said,
"it's the breathing
it's the breathing in and out and in and out....."

have you seen me lately?
have you seen me lately

i was out on the radio starting to change
somewhere out in America
it's starting to rain
could you tell me the things you remember about me
and have you seen me lately?

You know i thought someone would notice
i thought 'ah, somebody would say something'
if i was missing
well can't you see me?
come on color me in
come on color me in
come on come on come on..
give me your blue rain
give me your black sky
give me your green eyes
come on give me your white skin
come on give me your white skin
come on give me your white skin

cause i was out on the radio starting to change
somewhere out in America
it's starting to rain
could you tell me things you remember about me
and have you seen me lately?

gonna get back to basics
guess i'll start it up again
i'm fallin from the ceiling
you're falling from the sky now and then

maybe you were shot down in pieces
maybe i slipped in between
but we were gonna be the wildest people they ever hoped to see
just you and me

so why'd you come home to this sleepless town
it's a lifetime commitment
recovering the satellites
all anybody really wants to know is...
when you gonna come down

your mother recognizes all your desperate displays
and she watches as her babies drift violently away
'till they see themselves in telescopes
do you see yourself in me?
we're such crazy babies, little monkey
we're so fucked up, you and me

so why'd you come home to this faithless town
where we make a lifetime commitment
to recovering the satellites
and all anybody really wants to know is...
when are you gonna come down

she sees shooting stars and comet tails
she's got heaven in her eyes
she says i don't need to be an angel
but i'm nothing if i'm not this high

but we only stay in orbit
for a moment of time
and then you're everybodys satellite
i wish that you were mine

so why'd you come home to this angel's town
well it's a lifetime's decision
recovering the satellites
all anybody really knows for sure is...
that you're gonna come down

All dressed up
No place to go
Hey monkey, when you gonna show your face�around me
I know all the wrongs and rights
And I just want a little light to fall�on me

Hey monkey, where you been?
This lonely spiral I've been in
Hey monkey, when can we begin?
Hey monkey, where you been?

Well I'm all messed up
That's nothing new
Hey monkey, when you open up your blue eyes
I don't know if I'm wide awake or dreaming
But all I ever need is everything

Hey monkey, where you been?
This lonely spiral I've been in
Hey monkey, when can we begin?
Hey monkey, where you been?

Just get the world off your shoulders
And close your pretty blue eyes
Hey monkey, what's life without an-
Occ-a-tion-al sur-prise?

Got nowhere but home to go
Got Ben Folds on my radio right now
I'm in trouble for the things I need
Hey monkey, don't you want to be needed� too?

Hey monkey, where you been?
This lonely spiral I've been in
Hey monkey, when can we begin?
Hey monkey, where you been?
Hey monkey, where you been?
Hey monkey, where you been?

she is trapped inside a month of grey
and they take a little every day
she is a victim of her own responses
shackled to a heart that wants to settle
and then runs away
it's a sin to be fading endlessly
yeah, but she's alright with me

she is leaving on a walkaway
she is leaving in disarray
in the absence
of a place to be
she stands there looking back at me
hesitates, and then turns away
she'll change so suddenly
she's just like mercury
yeah, but she's alright with me

keep some sorrow in your
hearts and minds
for the things that die before thier time
for the restlessly abandoned homes
the tired and weary rambler's bones and stay beside me where i lie
she's entwined in me
crazy as can be
yeah, but she's alright with me

A long December, and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leavin'
Now the days go by so fast

And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven....I wish you would

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that its all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl

And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California...I think you should

Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

And its been a long December, and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean..I guess I should.

I've gotta rush away
she said, I've been to Boston before
and anyway, this change I've been feeling
doesn't make the rain fall
No big differences these days,
just the same old walkaways

Someday, Im gonna stay
but not today